Pookie's Room

Continued from My Anime List.

More to come...

I must admit...I love these. Even tough some times they are way off, its still fun to see what the outcome is. Maybe it's just because I like telling people about myself? XD Anyways, you guys don't know how hard it is to find decent ones. Or maybe you do.

Also, these images are directly linked (it's ok, they give you the code there, which wasn't working for some reason), and direct links tend to get deleted along with the page or whatever. So if the image is broken, chances are the link will be no longer there as well.

Which Final Fantasy Character are you?
↑ Too bad, I haven't played that one yet.

What kind of anime character are you?
↑ Hmmm, I already found my knight in shining armor. :D

Which stereotypical CLAMP emotion are you?
↑ Sounds more like my boyfriend than me. Hehe.

What cute Final Fantasy creature are you?
↑ Ridden, huh? XD

Which Yu Yu Hakusho character are you?
↑ Hmmm, that sounds about right.
 

Which evil anime badass are you?
↑ Huh? Lardo?

How evil are you?
↑ Muahaha... ?

Which Pokemon are you?
↑ Cool. I like Lucario. :3

I love Hello Kitty. Hello Kitty is from Japan. Japan is weird. You can find just about everything featuring Hello Kitty. For example, Hello Kitty condoms. Some look like lollipops, others have monkeys on them with useful phrases like "Give it your best!"

There is also Hello Kitty vibrators, silky boxers,  and douches. Who knew.

I found a nifty thing while surfing the net on my little misadventures one day, which was an online trading card game, without all the money. It's called Senshi Card-Mania!-R, and it's pretty cool. Since one of the requirements was to have the link to the site showing at all times or something, I made a separate site which can be found here or at all times to the left...I mean right, under "Other Sites". That should work, right?

I decided to make a English version of my favorite Japanese Image board, Komica, so it makes it easier to navigate. For me. And maybe somebody else who might use it. Oh, and only the cool boards are allowed.

Contents may be unsuitable for minors. Beep.

General Boards
Game
PaintBBS
Wallpaper
Figurines
Cosplay
Dolls
Animated
Photograph
Female
Unisex
Personification
Shoujo Manga
Novel

Specific Boards
Touhou Project
Leaf & Key
TYPE-MOON
Haruhi Suzumiya no Yuuutsu
Maids
Miko
Mahou Shoujo
Monster
Mecha Musume
SD

...that's not all. I'll probably add some more later. I'm really busy with work (Michaels). And I'm very tired right now~

So, ya know... I have the joined fan listings, the doumei, and um, err, uh, etto... Here's some cute stuff.UM

For a couple of years now, I've been visiting Japanese CG (Computer Graphics) sites. Even though they're in Japanese, they're pretty easy to get to the artist's gallery, even without knowledge of the the language. Most of the artists aren't very popular, only producing a few doujinshi, but some of the artwork is amazing. Here are some of my favorite artists sites.

Site title (Romaji / "Translated title if I know it") - Rating - Anime/manga/game/whatever artworks included in the artists' site, among others.

NO BANNER
▲ --- - 15+ - Kimikiss, Bloody, Rozen Maiden, mostly original artwork...

▲ 風邪道 (Kaze Michi) - 15+ - Maria-sama ga Miteru, Ragnarok Online...

▲ ジャブロー２丁目 (Jaburo 2nd) - 15+ - Weird pregnancy fetish, Live-a-live, Dragon Quest...

▲ クロイチゴ (Kuro Ichigo / "Black Berry") - 15+ - Maria-sama ga Miteru, Mai-HiME/Otome, Utawarerumono...

▲ 久坂宗次のホームページ (Kusaka Shuu Tsugino HP) - 18+ - Lucky Star, Sister Princess...

▲ ｣ﾈ｣ﾍ (HM) - 15+ - Bloody, Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni, Shuffle!...

▲ ちげえねえ (Chigeenee) - 18+ - Rozen Maiden, Galaxy Angel, Lucky Star, Zero no Tsukayama...

▲ 鬼猫屋 (Oni Neko Ya / Demon Cat?) - All ages - Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni, Touhou...

▲ 珍竹林 (Chin Chikurin) - 18+ - To Heart 2, original artworks... 

▲ 4040 - 15+ - Yuri.

▲ 5年目の放課後 (5 Nenme no Houkago / "After School of the 5th Year") - 15+ - Mahou Shoujo Lyrical Nanoha, Haruhi Suzumiya no Yuuutsu, The Idolm@ster Xenoglossia, Lucky Star...

▲ Blue Berry Jam [桜沢いづみサイド] (Sakurazawa Izumi Side) - All ages? - To Heart 2, Pure Pure...

▲ Cradle - All Ages? - Touhou, Rozen Maiden...
NO BANNER
▲ Galge.com -オリジナル壁紙- (Orijinaru Kabegami / "Original Wallpaper") - 18+ - Lots of wallpapers by various artists. Hawt. Boobies.

▲ GALAXY STYLE - 15+ - TYPE-MOON, Key, Leaf, Ragnarok Online...

▲ GLASS HEART - All ages? - Mostly original work.

▲ Long-Cake - All Ages? - Sprite/pixel art, mecha musume, Pangya, Rockman, Final Fantasy...

▲ Maruto! - 15+ - Mai-HiME, Mai-Otome...

▲ Momocan Egoism - 18+ - Lucky Star, Persona 3, To Heart 2...

▲ NAhopa! - All Ages - 3D artwork, Haruhi Suzumiya no Yuutsu, Dead or Alive, Final Fantasy, Dragon Quest...

▲ PLASTIC GIRL - 15+ - Code Geass, Lucky Star, Haruhi Suzumiya No Yuuutsu...

▲ Peeping P! - All Ages - Clannad, To Heart, mostly original art...

▲ Reason - All Ages - Chibi, Futago Hime, Lucky Star...
NO BANNER
▲ rumblefish - 15+ - Mostly original works. To Heart 2, Xenosaga...

▲ ryusuke works HELLBOY - All Ages? - Idolm@ster Xenoglossia, Neon Genisis Evangelion...
NO BANNER
▲ T2 ART WORKS - 15+ - Original artworks by Tony Taka...

In alphabetical order. I'm an aspiring horror movie buff so I like to keep track of what I've seen. I've probably forgot some, but oh well. I'll come back to it.
Anyways, here it is. I'll rate them with red hearts .The most hearts a movie can get is five.

1408 - Can't expect anything less than awesome from Stephen the King.
28 Days Later... - Wow. That was pretty cool. Zooombies~
  28 Weeks Later... - That was definately not as good as the first one. It ended so abruptly and all the characters made me angry. Like when the old people were making out. But that chick was hot.
Abandoned - This would make a awesome survival horror adventure game. BAD END!
Akira - Anime horror classic.
Alien - Different, awesome.
Aliens - AKA Alien 2. It was actually better than the first.
Amityville Horror, The - You know, I watched it just a while back and I don't even remember what it was about. Kinda. So it probably wasn't that good.
Birds, The - Ehhh.
Carrie - I like the originality of this movie.

Dark Water - Japanese Original Version. Was good, but not very scary.
Donnie Darko - A cult classic.
Eraser Head - Scariest fucking thing I ever saw in my entire life. No kidding.
Excorsist, The - Another great classic.
Freaks - Man. THAT was fucked up.
Gothika - Hallie Berry...meh. Lesbian undertones (I can dream. D:)...VERY YES!
Hamiltons, The - WTF? Weird movie. Do not want.
Haunting, The (1999) - Remake of the classic. I haven't seen the classic, but I bet it's better. Still, the lesbian undertone gives it an instant +1 heart.
Interview with the Vampire - I looove this movie. It's one of my favorites.
Jakob's Ladder - Five stars...er, hearts out of five. This movie inspired the Silent Hill video games.
Jaws - Wasn't that great.
Lost Boys, The - This movie was the most 80's thing I've ever seen in my entire life.
Omen, The - A classic, a favorite.
Omen, The (2006) - Not as good as the original of course. But not bad.
Perfect Blue - My favorite anime movie. Maybe.
Psycho - Another one of my favorites. A classic.
Red Dragon - Another Hannibal spinoff. I enjoyed it, though.
Repulsion - I need subtitles. But it was pretty sexy.
Ring, The - Pretty good & scary, but I liked the original better.
Ringu, The - Japanese version of The Ring. Wasn't as scary, but it was the original.
Rosemary's Baby - Good, original, but kinda slow.
Saam Gaang Yi - I'm loving these foreign films. They're so much better than the current American horrors.
Saw II - Pure retardation. He's helping people view the world better.
Silence of the Lambs - Very good. Too bad all those spinoffs had to ruin the Hannibal character. Now it's just silly.
Skeleton Key, The - This movie will leave you saying "WTF WAS THAT?!"
Shining, The - Pure awesome.
Vampyr - Der Traum des Allan Grey - Kinda hard to follow, but good none the less. Very gothic.
What Ever Happened to Baby Jane? - Another really good one.

Oh yes, and in a note on my personal life, I got back with Leona. Yes, I'm happy, and yes, I am an idiot.

Alright...

Well, let's start at the beginning. I met Leona in the 11th grade, in my art class. She seemed cool, although pretty unintelligent, I thought I could get around that though. We became friends quickly. Her weird quirks, though, started to annoy me more and more. How she couldn't stand the thought of disappointing other people, and always conformed to whatever situation she was in to make people like her.

For example:

I was skipping school with her in the bathroom, playing my video games, and talking out loud. Outside the door I heard some stranger ask her, "Do you know that girl?" She quickly replied, "No." Afterward, she told me about it, and pretending not to hear I asked her what she had told the girl she said, "I said yes."

For one thing, saying that to a complete stranger about a good friend just so you could look good to them for one second pisses me off to this day. What would stop her from abandoning me in any second?

She lies about so many things, I know, like her  Stepmother. She tells me horrible stories about her that I know, while they may be  bad, she greatly embellishes the story to make her stepmother seem all the more evil.

Leona says she "loves" me. The other day in the hot tub, I kissed her. Definitely a bad move on my part. I don't know what I was thinking. I had been feeling so lonely and I wanted someone to share my pain.

Leona says she likes girls, but I know for a fact she also likes guys. With all her lying, what's to stop me to believe she's just saying these things just to make me feel comfortable around her? She never gets close to me, it's always ME that has to make a move, she says she's "shy" but if she really loved me she'd at least make an effort to get close to me. And still, I fill like she's only thinking of herself.

After school got out, I only have two friends, Her and Craig, I can actually talk to (ie, not on the internet). I'm pretty sure I can't be with this person. What to do, what to do...

I'm sure I left some stuff out, but nothing unimportant I think... Anyways, that's what's up recently.

Well, let's start at the beginning. My father abandoned me when I was in the 6th grade, leading to severe self-esteem issues. My mother's father also abandoned her at about 3 years of age, and my grandmother's husband, my "grandfather" is a perverted old man. So I can say that I feel like all men have done and ever will do is dissapoint me. It's been that way all my life so far.

Anyway, my parents divorced when I was about two, and she met a new man called Chris. Chris was the closest thing I had to a father, even when my father was still there. I remember sobbing into his shirt, and him telling me "you can cry on my shoulder anytime."

Chris was an alcoholic. He hated himself more than anything. When he was drunk he would get stupid. And sometimes, he would be drunk so often it was just daily life. He often got sick from the alchohol and threw up randomly. The only person I could confide in was my best friend since 6th grade, Charla. I really needed her badly. She was my reason for living.

Chris' drinking only got worse. He went to rehab for about six months, and after that, he would have violent and angry mood swings, and I was often the target of them, because he couldn't drown his problems in alchohol. He collapsed and finally had another drink about a year later. But the angry mood swings continued about every week.

I got used to him yelling at my mom about me, making her cry, and then leaving to go get drunk. I remember trying to protect my mom once, and he called me a "worthless peice of shit". Keep in mind that Chris had never hit me, and told me he loved me often. What the hell kind of love is that?

Years later, I dropped out of school to get my GED. I was so stressed out and the added stress of school was really hard on me. My best friend Charla was angry with me. I figured that would be the last time we ever saw eachother, so I wrote her a letter. I told her that I loved her, more than a friend. She was the only good thing in my life for so many years. I told her I thought she would be disgusted with me. She was... I guess it was just that my love is disgusting. I lost my best friend for eight years because I told her I loved her.

About three months ago, I was sitting in my room on the computer. His eyes were already red, and he was drunk. At nine-o-clock in the freaking morning! He asked me if I had called the office of the place I was planning to work. He yelled at me to do it, and I burst into tears and screamed "STOP YELLING AT ME!" I think I had reached my limit. I was tired of him always belittling me and making me feel bad. He said I was pitiful. He left the room and I called my Mom at work to tell him he was already drunk.
He came by my door and I asked him what he was doing. He said, "I'm listening to what you say to them so you don't fuck up!" I told him I didn't call the office, I called my mom because he was scaring me. My mom said she was coming home. When he found out he laughed at me... It was so bad.. he just laughed and said I was pitiful. I just looked at him and told him to get the fuck out of my room. He raised his fist back like he was going to hit me. That's the last image in my head of the man that was like my father.

I grabbed my knife and curled into a ball on the ground, sobbing. I could hear him in the other room telling me to "Give it up already." So, I covered my ears. I lied there, sobbing, until my mom showed up and we left for good. You know what the last thing he said to me was? "Nice knowing you."

So yeah, that's how im doing.